pretend

It’s almost April. I felt like it was only yesterday I stepped into this ‘era of college hood’. I wish I never grew up this much. Yes, I know, I don’t grow up much – in the aspect of height. Haha! But, let’s take it seriously. I looked at the calendar just now – 8 months left before our big test. Wow, that’s fast. Perhaps, it is too fast. Are we taking the shortcut? I hope not, because I really do prefer to take the long highway now – after I realise that we are arriving to our destination too soon. I knew this is coming – the tense, the pressure. But now, I can feel it. It shot right through me. It hits the bull’s eye, perfect score.

“Just hold on a little bit, it’s almost over.” That’s what all of the people told me. The fact is, that is a lie. A BIG FAT LIE. Because, even if I pass the AUSMAT programme, I will still have to endure all of the pain being an architecture student - staying up late, scribbling, crumpling and throwing papers. Then, if I pass the exam, I’ll be an architect. It gets even complicated. Juggling works with other desires – one of them, social life. After that, I get married and have children. Now, I’m juggling works with family. Even more complicated.

My point is, there is no ending. These will all keep repeating. I’m not complaining about my life. I’m looking the other side of it. Even though all of these are suffocating us, there is at least one thing that we should never neglect. It is how strong we are. We are strong if we get pass through all of these suffering. So, to all of my friends and even to myself, just at least ‘pretend’ to be strong. It is not wrong to be a hypocrite sometimes, for our own sake. We’ll get through these. =)